I saw this graphic on Facebook yesterday and I was just like, yes. So much yes. I shared it on my insta and even printed it real quick so I could snap a blog-worthy photo to write a blog post about why I just loved it so much, and yep, I know — I’m running low on ink. *edit and hell yah I just realized I wrote “make more art” in the title instead of “make art” lolz *facepalm*
The first thing that came to mind when I saw this was that I definitely need to be kinder to myself. I do a great job of tearing myself apart and being negative about the way I look. It is very easy for me to tell you what I hate about myself but I have a tough time complimenting myself, or telling someone why I love who I am or what I look like. I know I need to be kinder to everyone else around me, but I need to start with myself first. To be honest I’ve been getting better at this and I have noticed that by being nice to myself and thinking positively I am in a better mood and I am less stressed/anxious therefore I am actually nicer to those around me. I think kindness definitely starts with yourself first.
I painted a lot when I was in high school and I used to make some really cool graphic blends when I was a kid on Photoshop. I’m not really into doing that stuff anymore, so right now art to me is writing and photography. I’ve been struggling to write a post for the past week here so I am super thankful for this graphic popping up on my feed because seeing it inspired me to want to write again. Am I the best writer? No, but do I love it? Yes! I also love taking photos and I had the nicest Nikon D3100 for a few years but I sold it last year. I bought a smaller Sony camera because I didn’t want to haul around a chunky DSLR anymore, but I sure do miss my Nikon. The Sony isn’t bad, but once you’ve taken some stellar photographs with a DSLR it’s hard to not compare the results. I hope to borrow my boyfriend’s Canon DSLR (which he doesn’t even use!) to take some cool photos this year, as well as still playing with the Sony.
Read good books
*cue Daniel Bryan theme song* Yes, yes, yes! I am so happy that I made a reading goal this year to read 15 books. I am on a roll right now and am on book #4 already! I am hoping that I can keep this up and crush my 15-books goal and read even more than that. I used to struggle when describing what types of books do I like to read, and it is something that I am still figuring out, but I have found that I really enjoy historical romance novels and thrillers/suspenseful books. I made a Goodreads profile if you’d like to add me! I’m still trying to figure out how to use it but it’s so much fun looking through all the books & reading the reviews and stuff. 😀
Take no shit
Cue that Daniel Bryan song again! Because Yes, Yes, Yes! I am so done letting stupid bullshit affect me. I have this thing with my body where, well, I hate it. But lately I’m shifting more towards I am learning to accept my body and love the way I am. I am small. I am 5′ 3″ and I weigh 114 pounds. I am skinny, but I hate that word, so I like to use small. People all around me my entire life have loved to tell me “You should eat more, Jessica.” “You should gain some weight, Jessica.” “You’re so skinny Jessica, a man wants a girl with more meat on her.” (Someone actually told me this and I wanted to hurt them so bad)
You don’t even know how many times I have just forced a smile at these people and then turned around and started crying. Some people are just skinny, I am one of those people. I like to eat as healthy as I can, I walk, take the stairs and lift things at work the majority of the day… this is just how I am. I can’t help it that I would rather grab a pear than a doughnut, or that I am fine just eating one cookie.
Recently when people make a comment about my weight, instead of smiling and then crying later I look at them and tell them: I like how I look, I don’t need to get fat and I don’t like your comments about my weight. They kind of don’t know what to say when I tell them this, so that’s kind of funny, but I’m done getting sad about it. It’s no one’s business to tell me what I should do with MY body.