Be kind, make more art, read good books, take no shit

be-kind-make-art-ohjI saw this graphic on Facebook yesterday and I was just like, yes. So much yes. I shared it on my insta and even printed it real quick so I could snap a blog-worthy photo to write a blog post about why I just loved it so much, and yep, I know — I’m running low on ink. *edit and hell yah I just realized I wrote “make more art” in the title instead of “make art” lolz *facepalm* 

Be kind

The first thing that came to mind when I saw this was that I definitely need to be kinder to myself. I do a great job of tearing myself apart and being negative about the way I look. It is very easy for me to tell you what I hate about myself but I have a tough time complimenting myself, or telling someone why I love who I am or what I look like. I know I need to be kinder to everyone else around me, but I need to start with myself first. To be honest I’ve been getting better at this and I have noticed that by being nice to myself and thinking positively I am in a better mood and I am less stressed/anxious therefore I am actually nicer to those around me. I think kindness definitely starts with yourself first.

Make art

I painted a lot when I was in high school and I used to make some really cool graphic blends when I was a kid on Photoshop. I’m not really into doing that stuff anymore, so right now art to me is writing and photography. I’ve been struggling to write a post for the past week here so I am super thankful for this graphic popping up on my feed because seeing it inspired me to want to write again. Am I the best writer? No, but do I love it? Yes! I also love taking photos and I had the nicest Nikon D3100 for a few years but I sold it last year. I bought a smaller Sony camera because I didn’t want to haul around a chunky DSLR anymore, but I sure do miss my Nikon. The Sony isn’t bad, but once you’ve taken some stellar photographs with a DSLR it’s hard to not compare the results. I hope to borrow my boyfriend’s Canon DSLR (which he doesn’t even use!) to take some cool photos this year, as well as still playing with the Sony.

Read good books

*cue Daniel Bryan theme song* Yes, yes, yes! I am so happy that I made a reading goal this year to read 15 books. I am on a roll right now and am on book #4 already! I am hoping that I can keep this up and crush my 15-books goal and read even more than that. I used to struggle when describing what types of books do I like to read, and it is something that I am still figuring out, but I have found that I really enjoy historical romance novels and thrillers/suspenseful books. I made a Goodreads profile if you’d like to add me! I’m still trying to figure out how to use it but it’s so much fun looking through all the books & reading the reviews and stuff. 😀

Take no shit

Cue that Daniel Bryan song again! Because Yes, Yes, Yes! I am so done letting stupid bullshit affect me. I have this thing with my body where, well, I hate it. But lately I’m shifting more towards I am learning to accept my body and love the way I am. I am small. I am 5′ 3″ and I weigh 114 pounds. I am skinny, but I hate that word, so I like to use small. People all around me my entire life have loved to tell me “You should eat more, Jessica.” “You should gain some weight, Jessica.” “You’re so skinny Jessica, a man wants a girl with more meat on her.” (Someone actually told me this and I wanted to hurt them so bad)

You don’t even know how many times I have just forced a smile at these people and then turned around and started crying. Some people are just skinny, I am one of those people. I like to eat as healthy as I can, I walk, take the stairs and lift things at work the majority of the day… this is just how I am. I can’t help it that I would rather grab a pear than a doughnut, or that I am fine just eating one cookie.

Recently when people make a comment about my weight, instead of smiling and then crying later I look at them and tell them: I like how I look, I don’t need to get fat and I don’t like your comments about my weight. They kind of don’t know what to say when I tell them this, so that’s kind of funny, but I’m done getting sad about it. It’s no one’s business to tell me what I should do with MY body.

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Reading goals for 2017

Happy new year! I decided to finally take Oh Hey Jess off of maintenance mode and start blogging again! I deleted all my old posts, like I always do when coming back from a break, because it’s a fresh, new start. Sorta. The new? I made a blog banner and drew my own title belt, isn’t it cute? But it’s the same black and white theme because IT’S MY FAVE and truthfully the posts on this blog will be the same as before — very much about me! — but with less about my relationship because holy fuck I talked tooooo much about my relationships last year, I’m definitely going to tone that down.

I’m starting the year off talking about something else besides my boyfriend that makes me happy: books! I honestly really do love to read. I am just the slowest reader ever. I have no idea how some people read 80-100 books a year. I would absolutely love to do that, and maybe one day I will, but my goal for 2017 is to read at least 15 books. One book usually takes me 2-3 weeks to finish, so I’m pretty sure I’ll end up reading more than 15.

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One of my favorite books that I read in 2016 was The Martian. I read that book in FIVE DAYS! That’s the fastest I have ever read a book! The book is brilliant and the movie is also great. I realized last year (sounds silly to say that, since yesterday was “last year”) that I really enjoy reading books that are turned into movies. The photo above shows the books that I read  in 2016 and most of them are now movies! I think my goal for 2015 was to read 5 books, so I’m definitely reading more now.

I wanted to make a cute collage of the 15 books that I want to read this year but there’s so many books that I see on Goodreads, book blogs and random articles online that I can’t choose 15 right at this moment. I’m currently reading Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and when I am done with that I’ll be reading The Girl on the Train. But after that, I’m not so sure. I have Mr. Penumbra’s 24-hour Bookstore on my shelf, as well as some other random books that I’ve never read. My boss gave me Stephen King’s The Dark Tower: The Gunslinger, which tbh I don’t really want to read but I feel bad if I don’t since he gave it to me. I’m just going to start with The Girl on the Train and see where I go from there.